Happy 6 month Heavenly Birthday to Scotlin!

So, this post might end up being sad, not because I'm a sad person, but the situation is not the happiest in the world. Now that I've given you a fair warning, I wanted to post pictures of mine and Evan's bike ride to First Dam this last weekend. We have a friend who's sister moved to Provo for the summer and didn't want to cart her bike down there so she's letting me use it for the summer and it's been SO FUN!!!

We really are best friend!

So, today is May 23rd. It's usually not a very significant day. It's not highlighted on calendars, or celebrated, or really even recognized except as just another day in May. But in our house, it has great significance because it was 6 months ago today that we found out our little boy had died. At 2:00 that afternoon I had been admitted to Labor and Delivery at Logan Regional Hospital and my labor had been induced. I was struggling with the realization that my son had died and that I would still have to go through the treacheries of labor. (I know, I make that sound worse that it was). I was so blessed that night to have my husband, parents, siblings, close friends and our loving bishop and his wife near as we dealt with the loss, the sadness and tears, the pain, and the heartache. Tomorrow we will celebrate his 6 month Heavenly Birthday as he was born at 3am on November 24th. A couple months ago I was feeling very conflicted one night. I felt sad that Scotlin was gone but it was one of those days were I was able to see the "big picture" and I just knew in my heart that this pain would be short-lived and we would see him again soon. That's when I jotted this down in my journal:

My little angel

My darling child born sleeping,

The moment I said goodbye

Your fellow angels were weeping

My heart felt heavy

And my eyes shed tears

Though I knew you'd stay with me

In the coming years

The days are the worst

When my arms ache to hold you

Nothing softens the pain

And comforts are few

Your daddy's here with me.

Sometimes he cries

Each time I see his pain

A part of me dies

There's only one thing

That I can find

To bring comfort and peace to my mind:

Two-thousand year ago

Jesus gave his life,

So we could be together 

After all this strife

And because mommy and daddy

Were sealed together
Our little family
Will last FOREVER!

So I hope you can't wait
'Til this trial in life is done,
And you'll get the biggest hug ever
From your loving Mom!

I love you little Scotlin!

If anyone wants to share memories or thoughts about Scotlin, you're welcome to send them to me at whitlee.e@hotmail.com